What is something you’ve shed this year?

Whew. This year was full of a lot change for me. I feel like mostly I shed my expectations of self. I have moved through my entire life being incredibly demeaning and demanding of myself. I attempted to escape life first through giving up on everything so I no longer felt responsible for how my life played out and then through pursuing everything to prove or validate myself. And now I’m just existing. It’s amazing when I can let it be. And this year, i let myself be. 

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What feels like the truest version of your work?

The truest version of my work feels like an unfiltered expression of my life experiences. Most of my creative practice revolves around the performance of self as it relates to sex work/sexuality/gender and all the gaps and overlaps between those worlds. These are very censored and stigtimatized expressions of self, so regardless of perception (which can be hard to relinquish at times) it is vital to my work to remain authentic about these parts of my story as an act of resistance against this censorship.

What sensation do you crave?

I crave the sensation of reciprocal love and care. There’s nothing better than being surrounded by those I love unconditionally and who I know do the same for me. 

What’s something you’d burn down to start again?

Society. We need a serious reboot. 

What’s the wildest thing you’ve ever done?

The wildest thing I have ever done is let myself believe that truly anything is possible for me, and for every single one of us. The expansiveness can feel terrifying and impossible to understand, but more than anything it is really thrilling. It’s funny because I have an entire archive of dumb nasty life threatening shit I’ve done, especially during my active drug addiction, but nothing makes me float like acting in alignment with my wildest dreams for the potential of society. I wish I knew that earlier.  Freedom to relinquish the ‘norms’ is what I was truly looking for all along.